Over the last few week’s I have had time to think, a lot of time to think. My husband is back to his 8 to 4 job and I don’t go back to work for another week. I think to myself what it would be life to be a stay at home mother, and the thought intimidates me immediately. I only say this because I think I am afraid of losing sight of who I am, outside of my marriage, outside of being a wife.
I have had dream’s of writing, of inspiring young women to follow the Lord’s calling on their life, to work hard at chasing what ever it is that they aspire to be in life. For so long I knew that I wanted to do these things and more.
I recall telling my husband (my boyfriend at the time) that I wouldn’t get married unless the man was in full support of my dreams. He looked at me like I was crazy, like why wouldn’t he support these dream’s, they are for the good of other’s and he want’s to do everything he can to get me there.
Needless to say, I was baited and hooked.
I know that my life is just starting and I have a lot of time to figure thing’s out and chase dream’s and let certain one’s brew for a while. I am young. I just don’t want to miss any opportunity.
So, currently, I am trying to find a balance of being 22, being a wife, being in college, and chasing the Lord’s calling on my life. It is a journey, to say the least, and the only thing I can do is take it one day at a time.